Walking On A Cloud

The Basics of Sub Space

By Mistress Norische

"Subspace can be different, depending on the scene. When Mistress uses a single tail and heavy floggers, or quills i go very deep into subspace. If it is a light scene, the subspace isn’t as heavy. Basically, when i’m in subspace, i can hear what is going on around me; but choose to ignore it. When deep into subspace, what is going on around me is barely heard, but if something loud or chaotic were to happen, it would rip me out of my little world and throw me back into this one; but not in a good way!!! i would probably cry or feel terribly afraid, and would probably end up with a headache. With the heavy subspace, i go to this place that is like another world, but full of clouds and blue sky. Sometimes, my place is pitch black and i float in my world, feeling peaceful and wonderful. Even if i’m in the pitch black place, it still feels serene and wonderful. If sex is included in the scene, and i am allowed to cum, or not (sometimes), i go very deep too.

my world(s) are safe and harmonious, and peaceful; a place where i can float, safely without any cares or worries. i can float and feel a part of everything and feel calmness and harmony. Usually, upon joining everyone in the "real" world, i am happy and grinning from ear to ear, and giggly. If i’m giggly, then i walk wobbly and don’t have my land legs yet. When that happens i usually need to be helped with everything, because i’m still out of it. Most times, though, when i come back, i can walk on my own, get redressed, etc... with no help. i still feel peaceful and safe, and serene, life just is better overall.

As far as aftercare goes... when i go into subspace, i NEED to be held by Mistress, i don’t necessarily have to hear her voice, but i need to feel her close to me, i think that is why i feel so safe and protected in my "world". There have been times when Mistress wasn’t able to stay with me for long, and usually then i come out of subspace a lot sooner than i would like to, but without her presence and touch there, there isn’t the same feelings, so why stay? To relax enough to allow myself to go into subspace, i must feel like its ok to go, that i will be safe and protected, and that i don’t have to worry about anything negative happening while i’m there.

When i scene with others, most of the time i do go to subspace, but, it just isn’t the same as it is with Mistress. J When we scene at home, i usually like it quiet. If there was music playing during our scene, then it is stopped. To hear Mistress talking to others, and to lightly hear their voices talking, it’s ok, i can stay and float. But, if someone is being loud, and inconsiderate, then i usually come back almost immediately. When we scene at group meetings, i adjust to having others there, and lots of noise, including music playing that I don’t necessarily like. Most of the time, those things are not a factor that makes me enjoy subspace less. Well, if others are really close to me, and continue to have their conversations at normal voice levels, that will interfere with my world, and cause me to return quicker than i would like to. If i can shut out the conversations, then i stay awhile. Sometimes i can and sometimes not. Again though, i think it depends more on the type of scene rather than where we are that controls the depth of my subspace. i think i covered everything that I was suppose to... J"

Written by betsy

I informed betsy, my slave, that I was writing an article about subspace and told her to write down what she feels, what things effect her subspace, and what she thinks others should know about subspace, this she did quite well.

Subspace is different for everyone, some individuals simply float around in a happy place others travel thousands of miles and centuries in the past to a place far away and long ago, not touched by man nor beast. Others may drift from sensation to sensation, reliving the whole experience over and over again, reveling in each touch of the whip, each hit of the flogger, relishing the cold steel of a blade or the warmth of a fur as it was brushed across the skin.

Another slave described his journey as an almost out of the body experience, he knows he is there but he can’t feel his body, he hears things but they sound like they are noises way off in the distance. He used to tell me that the harder the scene, the harder it was for him to find his body again, and that sometimes he just wanted to take off and never come back again, the freedom he felt while souring through subspace was beyond Shangri-La, a place where the soul flies free, no longer anchored to the physical realm by a worn and battered body. Free to journey beyond the stars to the deep blackness of space, free within the boundaries of slavery.

When I was in training to be a Mistress I went through three years of hell as a slave; during that three years I experienced a vast array of painful lessons. My Master also believed that you should never use something on another individual that you have not had used on yourself first, so I had the pleasure of experiencing the whole of his collection of sadistic toys. He even bought a few new items just for me; since I was the only female he had ever worked with. Let me tell you one thing mammograms have got nothing on breast binders, or breast presses. During my time with him I experienced subspace, it is an experience that I will treasure forever.

It was while I was serving that I first saw someone go into subspace. The first time I watched jeff fall to the ground I thought for sure that the cops were going to break into the house any minute, I quite literally panicked. Then I realized that Walter’s other boy, drew was smiling and watching the whole thing as if was the most wonderful thing in the world, so I asked, and he explained subspace to me. He said, "when your body reaches a certain point it gives your mind permission to leave for a little while and wonder about without the body". It took almost a year for me to be able to understand what he meant. I must say it was definitely not for a lack of trying on Walter’s part, he tried everything whips, canes, floggers, sensory, you name it he tried it. I was beginning to wonder what was wrong with me, and I guess in a way I felt like a failure at being a slave, because I couldn’t give him that part of me, that the other two seemed to be able to achieve at the drop of a hat; it two fourteen months, two weeks and three days for me to figure it all out. I was afraid. Going into subspace meant leaving my body in the hands of Walter, jeff, and drew; I know I trusted them but I couldn’t consciously give up the control over my body to another. Oh I could kneel at Walter’s feet, I could crawl behind him on a leash, I could even scrub his stupid "study" with a toothbrush... but I always had control, at any time I could get up and walk out the door. I talked to Walter about it and he seemed to understand somehow, that night he tried something different.

He went out and bought a bag of candles, all different sizes and shapes, he got a blindfold and a headset, and some incense sticks. Then he put me on his "work table", cuffed spread eagle. The first thing he did was pull a chair up and sit down and talk, he asked me if I trusted him, I gave him a strange look and thought about it... this is not the kind of question you want to hear while bound to a table helpless. I almost answered immediately but when I looked into his eyes I realized that he wanted a absolute truth not just an answer, I told him "I think so." We talked some more and he asked again, he kept this up until I answered "yes".

Then he put the blindfold on me, and the headphones, he played a dark hypnotic music that I honestly wish I knew who it was, but I had no idea. Then he lit the incense and put it up close to my head, it was patchouli I think, or perhaps sandalwood... it was hard to tell. Then he and the boys light the candles and started them burning, I could smell the sulfur from the matches even over incense. The first thing I felt was oil being rubbed on my body; it didn’t have a scent so I am assuming it was mineral oil. I could feel their hands all over my body rubbing in the oil and massaging my muscles, as I began to relax I went into an almost meditative state, pure heaven... Walter had never done anything that was focused on my pleasure so this was all new to me.

Then after what seemed like forever I felt the first burn, I knew it was the candle wax hitting my skin. It was just hot enough to be noticeable but not hot enough to burn, gradually the drops of wax got hotter, and I knew he must have been lowering the candle closer to my skin. He dropped the wax in an almost rhythmatic way; again I was lulled close to a meditative state. Then all of the sudden I felt the drops of wax coming from different areas, I knew that drew, and jeff were also in on the wax play now, each one was different somehow. One was hotter, one dropped just a drop or two and another seemed to pour the wax on. The sensations were coming in from everywhere; I was trying to predict where or when the next drop would hit and jumping in surprise when I failed to succeed.

My body became a blur of pain and pleasure, then just as suddenly as it had started, it stopped. I waited, and waited, nothing. Trying to hear through the headset, trying to move my head so I could see through the blindfold. Then it happened. All of the sudden I felt a sharp blade on my leg, from the way it was moving I knew who ever had the blade was scrapping the wax away, then at my throat I felt very hot wax drip down the side of my neck and puddle behind me, at the same time I felt ice being ran along my breasts and over my nipples. The rush of sensations was too much, hot, cold, and the knife, all at once took hold of my will and drug me down.

It seemed like an eternity but in reality it was but a minute or two, and I was floating. Finally able to truly surrender, truly escape, holding nothing back I ran with my freedom for as far as I could go and I never wanted to come back. When I came back around Walter was there with me, sitting there with a very proud look on his face, but he couldn’t help but laugh when the first words out of my mouth were "god I have got to pee!". He stated that the scene had lasted almost three hours and that I was out of it for almost twenty minutes. At first I was concerned at how long that was since the guys were normally up and back to work or ready for more after five minutes, he assured me that the first time you go into subspace that the length of time may be longer or shorter. When I got up and even before I went to the bathroom, I knelt before him and kissed his boots; something that I had been ordered to do many times before but this time I did it without being told, this time it came from my heart. I was a little disturbed when I got up and noticed that both drew and jeff were crying, I turned to Walter just in time to see a tear trickle down his check. I didn’t understand then but I do now.

I didn’t honesty experience subspace very many more times, but each time I did it was heavenly. The best way I could explain it was a place of white fluffy clouds and white mist. There were always flickery lights around, kind of dancing on the mist. If someone made a loud noise while I was out, it was like one of those flickery lights would explode and a huge bright light would blast me back to reality, I normally had a headache for a while and my vision would be somewhat blurred as well.

One experience I would like to mention is I think my third experience with subspace. I had been out for maybe two minutes then all of the sudden someone was banging on the front door, when I heard that noise I became instantly defensive. I jumped back to this realm within a heartbeat and I sat up and swung, I caught Walter right on the chin, with a right hook. Knocked him on his butt, he just sat there looking at me rubbing his chin... I had no clue what was going on or that I had even just hit him... all I knew is that if anyone touched me at that point I would have decked him or her too. Walter’s guest apologized profusely and Walter just shook his head ignored him. The only thing he said to me was that the next time the headphones stay on until I come out of it completely.

Something that betsy mentioned that I think is very important is that subspace and after care go hand in hand. After a scene, whether the individual goes into subspace or not they may not know exactly what is going on, they may be disoriented and confused. They may be hypersensitive to light, sound or touch, or they may not have a true connection with their senses.

Some individuals do not want to be touched in any manner, for some it will pull them out of subspace and slam them into this realm in a rather painful manner. Even if an individual does not wish to be touched, do not leave them alone. They are in a very vulnerable state and need to be assured that they are safe, do not believe for one second that they will not know if you leave their side... they may not tell you but they know. A slave/sub can literally feel your breathing, they feel your energy radiating from your body to them, and they smell your sweat and the hormones bursting through your pores with each heartbeat. They know the difference between you and a stranger, they know when someone unfamiliar to them is close, and they need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they are safe.

Some individuals have a very hard time reaching subspace; others can escape the harsh reality of this world with the drop of a hat. Sometimes it is what is being done to the individual that makes the difference; sometimes it is who is doing it or even the environment that it is being done it. Sometimes it is a test of will, a test of strength; sometimes it is a matter of trust. Each person is different; do not feel that just because you have never reached that blissful journey that you are less of a slave/sub or less of a person.

I have noticed that individuals that are truly hard core masochists have a harder time hitting subspace, they like the pain too much and don’t want to consciously give it up, leaving this reality means leaving behind the pain, and it in itself is all the special place they will ever need.

Something that I would like to mention at this time is, individuals that fake subspace. Oddly enough there are those that feel they must obtain (or at least appear to obtain) subspace every time they scene. Just as there are those that will fake an orgasm, there are those that will fake subspace. Why would someone fake subspace? Well the reasons may very but it comes down to one thing, ego. Either they are trying to stroke the ego of the individual they are scening with, or they feel that they are not being a real slave/sub unless they can reach subspace. It may be hard to tell but with careful observation you will notice a pattern, it wont matter who their scening with or what is being done, but these individuals will calculate the right time to "go down" and they go. There may not be any of the normal wobbliness, or in and out of space that normally occurs.

Hints:
Never leave a slave/sub alone while they are incapacitated, they are helpless and need your protection.

Unless it is an emergency, never try to pull someone back too quickly, allow him or her to find their own way back in their own time. If you think too much time has gone by (20 minutes or more) then gently attempt to rouse them, but make sure you do so gently.

Keep a close eye on an individual while in they are out, make sure that they are honestly in subspace and that they have not simply passed out or had some form of medical problem.

Cover the sub/slave with a blanket they will be cold when they get back, also you might want to lower the lights as well... there eyes will be hyper sensitive to the light.

Keep a glass of water near by; they might want a drink when they come back to you.

Your slave may be wobbly for a while, so keep a close eye on him or her, now is not a good time to have to make an emergency room visit over a boo boo.

Talk to your slave/sub, your voice is very comforting and allows them to know you are present.

Make sure you take the cuffs off the slave/sub, if at all possible, more than once an individual has been injured when they try to over their eyes from the light and hit themselves in the face with the metal fasteners on the cuffs.

Also when you remove the restraints make sure that you massage the area, circulation may have been compromised and this will encourage circulation to return to normal.

As soon as your slave/sub drops check them over quickly, is their shin cold, or clammy or if their skin is splotchy you might want to call for medical assistance. If the person has low blood sugar make sure that their blood sugar has not dropped too low and caused them to pass out.

Make sure the slave lays in such a manner as not to compromise the airway.

When someone "drops" they will loose control of their body so if you have them secured to something you will need to make sure that they do not injure themselves or fall. Be prepared to catch him or her and lower them gently to the floor. Make sure to guard the head so that it doesn’t hit the floor, they will be limp and unresponsive so don’t expect them to help you.

If you put them in a chair instead of on the floor, stay with them, a slave/sub can still do a nose dive from the chair and get injured.

On a final note it is quite normal for a slave/sub to have the munchies after a heavy scene, so be prepared, some cheese (protein) or fruit (natural sugars) is perfect. Although most seem to want sweets; try to limit the carbohydrates, it sometimes upsets the stomach after a scene.

Subspace is a wonderful thing, but do not view a scene just as a means to achieve subspace. Enjoy the scene and if you manage to journey into this realm then enjoy every second of it; but remember this, it is the journey not the end destination that one must strive for.

As with everything this is my opinion, take what you will and leave the rest. If you wish to contact me, my email address is Norisch1@mchsi.com. If you wish to see more of my work you may find a complete listing of all my writings at... http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Norisches_Quill/?yguid=99788111 in the files section.

Norische