Sub Space

By Alexus Kelsey Freeland © 1997

A friend wrote to us, asking us to try and define "sub space" ...

It is my opinion that subspace, like everything else is different for each of us. There are times when playing that I am simply VERY focused, my senses are heightened. I'm MUCH more aware of things around me including pain. There are times when I'm totally "out of it" from pain, and not always the GOOD kind of "out of it". Then there are times when for SOME REASON, and I think its based on several factors, that I reach "subspace". I was whipped with a belt last weekend. Normally I HATE this action. The things that led up it it helped me along. David had done many things to me, including allowing me to have 7 to 8 orgasms. I had clamps on my nipples and clit. I was bound, and stretched tight. I was blindfolded. It was warm in the room and as he increased the pain/pleasure things began to seem as if they were moving in slow motion. He spoke softly to me in that voice that always drives me CRAZY, touching me softly as he tormented me. When he finally began with the belt, he started slowly, and not too hard. Later, when the belt was coming down very hard, I believe I reached "that place". My whole body was on fire, but it didn't HURT in the normal sense. Every part of me was tingling and I could hear my self breathing very loud, in my head. I could hear my heart beat. My ears were ringing (it was almost as if I were underwater, if that makes any sense). After David untied me and put me on the bed, I remember being covered with sweat, and feeling a sort of "floating" feeling. He held me and brought me down slowly, and later we had incredible sex.

The point is, what ever it is that I experienced, and I've been there several times ... It was a feeling of becoming slightly UN attached to my body. The reason I use these words is because I normally have a VERY low tolerance of pain. In cases where I have reached "subspace" I have taken MUCH more than normal, and often with out fighting it at all. I've never done drugs so I don't know if that's what its like, but a friend of mine once told me that to her it was MUCH like smoking some VERY good pot. It was a "slow flying". I understand that everyone's experiences in this topic are varied, because even MINE are different depending on HOW the scene plays out. I also believe that there are varying levels of "subspace", and that should probably depend on the mental state of the sub/slave as well as what lead up to that point. I LOVE reaching that spot, but am glad that it doesn't happen all the time. When it does happen, its happen, its something we celebrate, and revel in. Its wonderful.